It’s going to take a miracle to bring me back, and you’re the one to blame.
I want to fucking hate you, I want this fucking pain to end. I want to be done with all this bullshit. I’ve never been so fucking attached to someone. You fucking broke me, ripped my fucking heart out’ve my fucking chest. You made me believe in you, you made me believe every bullshit word that came out’ve your fucking mouth. You made me hope for more than you could ever give me, yet I wanted it to be real; I WANT it to be real.
Why do I fucking want you?
Why do I want to wake up in your fucking arms every morning?, Why do I spend hours upon hours crying over the fucking mess that YOU made? Why do I still fucking love you?
Why did you do this to me? Why did you destroy us? Why do I keep going about pretending like it doesn’t hurt?
Because your selfish fucking ass ruined me. You ruined us because you’re a selfish fucking prick. You’re a fucking coward.
I hate you, every fucking part of me hates you. I’ve never hated someone so much before. I hate your arrogant smile, I hate how you never feel, I hate how you never show any emotion. Why don’t you understand that people care? What the fuck is your major malfunction? Why can’t you understand how much I love you? I love you so much that I fucking hate you.
What you see before you, this is what you’ve created. You’ve ruined the thing thats meant to make you burst with euphoria, and you’ve turned it into something I despise. I hate how much I fucking love you.
This isn’t some sick twisted love story, and your ass don’t fucking deserve me. I came here for you, from a different city, away from the people that I know and love. I’m alone, I feel isolated, and humiliated. You’ve hurt me, You’ve broken me. You treated me like a game, and throughout this whole thing, you’ve won, while I was losing myself. I used to be so sure of who I was, who I would be, and what I would do. It seems like I dropped everything and everyone for you. Nothing mattered to you. So here I am, with a broken heart, a mind full of insecurities, and trust issues.
Hope you’re fucking happy, because you’ve cost me everything.
Fuck you, and enjoy your solitude.